You don’t have far to go,
there’s a perfect road inside this perfect storm
that led you right back to where we began.
I stand in a stillness
that followed the rains and the thunder
and I’ve become so much stronger
than you remember.
I began as a woman spinning out of control,
until I hit the curb
and when I did,
I turned this all around.
You thought I had crashed and burned
and that the wounds would back me
into a corner,
but I came out fighting,
my spirit rose
but not as a ghost.
If only you could see
inside of me,
the outside has aged and grown
but in here, I found my way home.
Is there ever a right way to BE?
I asked that so many times
when I forgot who I was.
I lost myself piece by piece,
left like bread crumbs in a fairytale,
but I came full circle in that forest
and put myself back together
until ..I.. was the tree.
There’s a place, a space that is filled with wonder,
and the deeper that I sank down in its water,
the more I grew down under, losing the masks,
the skin that covered me.
My vulnerability seeped slowly
out of the leaks in the walls
you had pulled down.
I felt my heartbeat stop and thought
I would never be revived.
I believed I was caught up in a tragedy
but even my angels knew it was something holy.
I stood against the winds
that almost blew me over the edge,
laid quiet and curled up in my bed;
and all I could do was feel the rain as it falls
and stare at the moments that were shadows
haunting my soul all around.
I built my armor then, and fought.
It took me years,
but everything I believe in
is standing here in front of me.
I fell through the ceiling of clouds
filled with rainbows,
leaned on lightning and crumbled
like the ground beneath my feet
but the beauty I found
was worth the breaking apart.
I may have become empty,
but I found freedom in the emptying.
I come to you now,
as our paths cross back over..
and there’s madness in the revelry
and I am crazy…
as ever for you.
I feel your arms wrap me up in a love
that has been broken
but now the pieces fall into place
my heart pounds all the beats
of your words you’ve spoken
and I can see peace has come
from this struggle as I search your face.
You move me like gravity is defied,
and I see the truth in your eyes,
the way they silently sighed..
and when we both looked
through the darkness
we found our sun.
I want to be your everything,
with my everything that I’ve become.
I want to feel your hand
in the small of my back,
I want you to feel
the backbone I’ve grown.
I want you to know that I find pride
in being yours
and I’ve found pride in being me.
I still expect you to show chivalry,
to open doors,
but let them open in you
and for me too.
And that sway
as you watch me walk away,
my legs that switch
that sparkle in my eye,
don’t make me wait
I want you on my parted lips.
Forever…and a day